Madam ji wala distance

In my earlier write up, I mentioned Bihar as Jungle Raaj. Hey, that came as sarcasm which come fluent from me as I am a Capricorn. Capricorns are masters of sarcasm. Basically at the moment I am adjusting somewhere in between Jungle Raaj and urban Jungle. Oh it’s such a struggle. I really feel tough to connect to the urban world. Am I going backward? Missing the place where I have spent a major part of my life? No for sure. I am actually missing the Black and White world. May be the rowdiness have been termed as jungle raaj by the urban junglees. But trust me, I was more comfortable with them. I bet anyone would be. Oh come on, hypocrisy probably comes well with glassdoor-ed people. And I cannot really digest that. You gallify Biharis? I, being a Bong girl, unmarried, fiercely single, independent have spent five years of youth in Bihar. My experience, I suppose counts, right? I covered crime in Bihar. I do not wish to talk about Buddha or Mahavir or Ashoka here but I shall tell you my endeavour as a woman in Bihar. They start conversation with – Pranam. It was initially a little jolt to me. But with Pranam, came their suspicious looks. Why this woman will stay alone? They made little distance because this woman lives alone. I liked it. Many of them are not aware of the Japanese theory of physical proximity and space, but I enjoyed it thoroughly there. Men and women smoke and booze in public in Urban Jungle and think we are modern? That’s a sign of a free world? Excuse me. See the world out there. No they are not that modern that they won’t stare at a woman who drinks in public. They are not that good boys that they will not just pick up the girl they just liked on street. They will. And that’s make them Bihari, for me, at least. But again I stayed there all alone. Tried to see such unexplored places where I may not go again in my life. I have spent nights at villages, hills, by rivers ,camps with unknown men, women and not for once I felt like I might be in danger from the humans. I did not have to plug in to music like here these days I do. You may say I am a journalist, how could they show me true colours. But buds, here also I am a journalist, working with the same house. But guys at my hometown really disappointed me. Biharis have their other backlogs, we all have. But how far self-boasting as Bongs will take us to? They are comfortable with girl with a doputta. And it works. They do not have any inhibition in admitting that. Some sources still are hesitant to call up Madam ji. I found that cute. They are still conservative, they still have their grey areas…But I was comfortable with their nature- unpretentious. These days I struggle with the hypocrite words…I find myself so misfit to the ultramodern world. I liked the Madam ji wala distance, truly.